I have moments when I question it ALL. Is that how it's really supposed to be? I question my decisions, I question Boy, I question my morals, I question mankind in general. I hate that. I hate feeling so uncertain. I feel like in the last year that's all life has taught me: That there is very little you can ever be certain about. I don't understand how other people do it. How can you make these life altering decisions and not be scared shitless? Life is hard. I want to be 15 again. OH, to be stupid and naive. That was the life. Who would've thought?
I personally do not wish to be 15 again. I was too skinny and very nerdy (not that it has changed much), but sometimes the life altering decisions can be made by others without you even knowing... say for instance, a cheating spouse.
ReplyDeleteBut sometimes in order to know what's on the other side of the pothole is to not think twice and do it.
Well, you'll never know because that's the idea of destiny, you see. You may chose to believe in destiny or not, but at the same time, wheather that person cheats on you or not, or whatever other things can happen in a relationship, it's all part of living. It can make you weaker or stronger. If it makes you weaker, it's because you may let it weaken you. Life is unscripted and the only thing we can do is make the best of it.
ReplyDeleteFor me the one thing that remains the same, never changing, a constant rock is my God, my savior Jesus Christ! I can always count on Him... even when things look uncertain or like life is going to pot... I know He is on my side and that He is always looking out for my best interest! That's just how I feel :)
ReplyDeleteI have a lot of anxieties when I was 15 but it doesn't even compare to the real life. Hang in there, girlie.
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