Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Am I a horrible person, or is this normal behavior?

I logged on to facebook today & was immediately informed that 2 new albums had been created
and 2 of my friends were tagged in them. These two friends happened to meet at the same wedding that WG and I met at & they've been together ever since. She was actually the talk of the wedding... she was "that" girl, ifyaknowwhatimean. I'm not kidding when I say the phrase "She's a biter" pretty much summed up that wedding weekend because of her. Because I'm nosy & a glutton for punishment, I clicked in. There they were in sunny California, posing in front of the Hollywood sign & lounging on the beach. Below were captions talking about some of their time spent there.
Made. me. wanna. puke.

I'm horrible, right?
So much for a better me.

Having said that... it's time for an update on the challenge!

I scribbled down some of the things I was feeling blessed about yesterday...
1.) Dreams (I have some amazing, some crazy, some insightful, some awful... but I remember them all! So few people can remember all of their dreams, so I feel lucky to be able to!)
2.) Sweet emails & comments. Which really means sweet friends, I suppose!
3.) My family(Today was my brother-in-law's birthday and I got to spend the evening with the whole fam. Love them so much!)
4.) Sweet tea(or unsweetened, whatever!)... it's my savior since I gave up soda for lent.
5.) A roof over my head. (I saw a really young homeless man on the side of the interstate today. Made me so sad.)
6.) Sunshine :) It came out today and even though it's still cold...I enjoyed the rays on my pale skin for a few moments.

& Uhm, let's zoom so you can see another blessing...
I texted Summer last night in a sweets panic, "Do caramel flavored rice cakes count as sweets?!"
She said she didn't think so, but I still felt guilty b/c they're sorta kinda delicious and I almost prefer them to cookies. So, after perusing the aisles of Walgreens, I decided to try out frosted mini-wheats. I never enjoyed the texture when my Mom would buy them when I was a kid, but I thought maybe my texture taste had matured with age... and either I'm desperate or it has! I am loving my honey nut mini-wheat little bites (that's a seriously long title, Kellogg's!)
!

To be clear, I realize I am blessed for much more than I listed, however today was a pretty blah day for me. I didn't do too much or really even converse with anyone until 7:00pm.
I'm a very blessed lady, and I know that.


Today's focus:
With every negative thought that comes into your mind,
first immediately STOP it...
And then, replace that thought with what is TRUE and positive.

Join in on the 21 day challenge over at Summer's!
Hopefully you'll do better than I'm doing! Haha! I'm going to get better, I promise.
I'm only human...

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  1. Full disclosure? I facebook stalk my ex boyfriends ex wife; solely because I still cannot understand how he was ever married to her because she and I are polar opposites, so I try to dissect her in the hopes of figuring out him.

    THAT is not normal behavior! :)

    Cheer up lady...

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  2. Oh! Frosted mini-wheats! I'll have to try them. Maybe I'll have some variety over my good old standby, Cheerios!!!!
    Lindsey Petersen
    http://5kidswdisabilities.wordpress.com

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  3. That is totally normal behavior OR I am a horrible person. That is totally possible. I might be.

    I facebook stalk ex friends, ex bfs, and friends gfs that i dont like so i can judge. Ok - so I am a horrible person BUT your behavior sounds normal.

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  4. I feel like Facebook can be really dangerous to our hearts when we're already struggling. I've found that true often in my life...and instead of just knowing that in my head and not searching around on there usually I fall into the trap too. So it probably is normal? Or else we're just not normal together ;)
    And great idea on the mini wheats for a subsitute snack. I've been using yogurt and granola bars...but frosted mini wheats sound way better!

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  5. Yes, that is sooo normal! That's why fb is as popular as it is! so we can be voyeurs on other's lives and our pasts too!

    You are adorable and talented...no worries!

    Suzanne

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  6. Hi! Loving this girl! Don't worry we all do that on FB {haha}. Hope your having a great day! xoxo

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  7. it is totally normal!!! You'll be ok though:)

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  8. Love the drawings!

    Love to stop the negativity!

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  9. Aw, Lace, let yourself be human. Everyone with a great personality would do this. I do and I'm old enough to be your mother. You are not awful. What the hell is Facebook for, anyway? I'm still keeping up with some people I should have gotten rid of in my mind a long time ago.
    Mary

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  10. ha ohhh :( That's hard...
    I had to block my x husband so that I wouldn't ever know what was going on. He was abusive and I sure as heck didn't want to remember anything, or see anything for that matter!
    We know it's going to hurt, so why do we do it??

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  11. ur not a bad person thts part of being you... and mini wheats are yummy (:

    -cris

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  12. definitely normal, hang in there

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  13. definitely normal, hang in there

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  14. mmmm i miss mini wheats like there is no tomorrow...dang allergies! and i love your list of blessings! so true! isn't it amazing what a few minutes on sunshine can do?! hope you're having an awesome day!

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  15. This does not make you an awful person. It makes you normal and of course you're gonna be having some of those thoughts right now! We aren't judging you, promise :) I hope you've had a fantastic day, Lace!

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  16. I have a friend who updates her facebook page 5 or 6 times a day about what she's eaten (ie: Brie, olives, capers, and red wine on the back porch = Heaven) I've taken to reading them aloud in a snarky voice and then adding "and that's why I joined weight watchers". I'm way worse than you could ever be, Lacey Sweetie!

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  17. I love the positive outlook you are taking!

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  18. if that FB action makes you "horrible", then lady i am just evil. i think i've done that about a million times but i'm much worst b/c i'll take a pic with my cell and fwd message it to people.

    yea i'm evil.

    haha.

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  19. Nothing you could EVER do could be considered awful. You are just too sweet hearted. =)

    Sweet cakes, sweet tea, or cereal....just remember, it's not about doing it perfectly. It's about doing it the best you can.

    We're human, we makes mistakes.

    We just gotta get up and come back from them.

    Guru Summer lol

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  20. no that does not make you a horrible person lady!

    and i LOVE your hand writing!

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