It's confession time...and I'm not even Catholic

Hey ya'll.

{Trying to bring a little of Lacey back in the house....heyyy ooohhhh}

So yesterday you met Lacey's longest friend, Lauren, and today....well people, today you get me. I'm Summer from Le Musings of Moi....and while Lauren may have had her first....um, well....guess what?

I had her last.

But, whatevs. I'm good at sharing. No tug o war needed here.

Anyway, when Lacey asked me babysit her baby for her, I was so relieved.

Because you see...there has been something I've been wanting to confess, and I certainly didn't want to do it at my place.

Especially because over there it's Fashion Friday, not Feeling Friday.

{Okay, so that last part sounded better in my head...}

Anyway, here goes....it's confession time.

Sometimes, I'm embarrassed to admit to being a blogger.

Yes, I admit it.

My name is Summer, and I'm sometimes embarrassed to say I'm a blogger.

{Please, hold the stones....lest anyone start their judging}

Often times I find myself saying I have a "website."

I'm a "writer." {but, I am! I am!}

And in Vegas I "went to a conference. For writing."

Or for a "girls weekend."

{Okay, whatever, so it changed depending on who I told....}

I dunno. Maybe I feel like it's because people don't take bloggers seriously.

Or maybe I think people will judge me by thinking that I must be so self obsessed that I need a blog to promote myself.

{ahem.}

Or maybe I feel like people will think I'm a chat room dweeb making "friends" online.

{Not saying if you like chat rooms you're a dweeb. You know, it's the others who say it.}

But, you know what?

Those people can just suck it. Because I'm ready to come out with it.

I'm loud, and I'm proud, and I'm a blogger gosh darn it. And people like me.

{Stuart Smalley, can I get a "what what?!?"}

And it's because of those people that like me (go along with it) that I'm willing to take the risk of being embarrassed.

Over the last two years (geesh, it's been awhile), I have come to know some amazing amazing people simply by us opening up our hearts, and our worlds, and taking the chance at being vulnerable online.

I have been encouraged more than I could have ever asked for in times that have been so dark. I have laughed on days I didn't think I could find my smile. I have cried for people who hurt that I had never even met....in person. I have bonded and loved and found joy...

And I have come to believe that this world, this blogging world, is absolutely nothing to be ashamed of. Because there is an incredible openness, an inspiring vulnerability, and a refreshing lack of judgement here that you just don't find too often these days.

What's crazy is that it has taken me two years to figure this out.

But in the last month, there have been several girlees who have changed from "a reader" or "a blog I read," to someone I know. These someones know me. These someones have my heart, and I theirs.

They are someones who have become closer than friends and more like sisters, and what has bonded us together, I know can never be broken.

Someones like Lacey.....(and you other girls too....you know exactly who you are!)

{Lacey gets her name mentioned, you know, being it is her blog and all.}

It's because of you girls, you and you, and you and you...and you....that have me ashamed of ever being ashamed.

Had it not been for my blog, your blogs, and this silly little blogging world....I wouldn't have found what I never knew I was missing.

The rest of my heart. My other pieces.

You complete me.

You had me at hehh...hehh...hellllloooo.....*sob, sob*

See now?

Aren't you glad you didn't throw stones?

No need to judge! I'm just a slow learner, but this lesson was definitely worth the time.

Whew. I can't begin to tell you how much better I feel now.

Confession feels great.

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Thanks Lacey love, and to all my girls...for everything.

Ya'll have no idea how I am changed....because of you.

Muah.

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